We tend to keep things simple in our household when it comes to holidays. Big R is more inclined to celebrate loving me for no reason by surprising me with something sparkly than go "big" for a holiday. He's the type that gives me my Christmas gifts in October and smiles from ear to ear when I open it. Mother's Day is a funny holiday though. It's so much less about giving than it is about appreciating. My big love is preparing for a nasty trial and has been having a love affair with evidence. He got me a huge bouquet of beautiful flowers, went to the grocery store because he knows how much I loathe that task, and gave me a million promises to do something amazing for me as soon as he's done chasing the bad guys in court. I just adore my my sexy lawyer husband. Despite not getting to see much of the hubby today, I was able to enjoy Mother's Day by being a mother and enjoying the entire day with my little bear. I also spent much of the day reflecting on being a mom and wondering how that roll will change and redefine itself over the next few years while we are in Germany.
Being a mom is something I always knew I would enjoy. I think it is because my mother was so amazing that I was excited to be that amazing to someone else. It's a challenge that no one can prepare you for, but it's also so much more wonderful than anyone could define. Being a mother is something you feel in your whole being. It is truly something you have to experience to understand.
When it first became clear that I might not be working for the next few years, I was terrified. I knew nothing but my career before I went to law school and met Big R. Being dependent on someone does not exactly fit into my comfort zone. Now that I have had time to settle into the idea it is starting to grow on me a little more. Some thinking outside the box about ways to diversify my career and experience Europe without the "9 to 5" grind to weigh me down. But mostly, I'm getting increasingly more excited to spend more time with my little bear. Yes, it will definitely be fun to see what the next few years will bring.
Happy Mother's Day to my mom, my mother-in-law, my stepmom and all my good friends that are mother's today. I hope your Mother's Day was amazing in every way and that you took some time to reflect on how amazing it is to be a mom and just how incredible you all are!